new year... fresh start. [or something like it]

fresh start... everybody hopes for it. everybody desires it. and when are people more motivated to make fresh starts than when new year comes? when calendars move back to january. when everything seems to reset to ground zero. when another year offers 12 full months for us to work on our new goals and plans.

last year has truly been tough in many avenues of the society. economic recession. natural calamities. political instabilities. things that have affected our perosnal lives one way or another. me, included.

then comes another year. so we try to be hopeful. optimistic. having this goal and vision and determination to make up with whatever opportunities we missed and clean up whatever mess we created. truthfully and personally speaking, life has been rough and tough. lots of winding turns and ups and downs. and for good measure, i quit my job because i knew somehow that that would be the only way to keep my wandering sanity back... to keep me from completely going mental. you'd do the same if you were in my shoes. [dont worry, i wear mostly hush puppies and sketchers. ok, they're not the really expensive brands but they have cool designs that suits my style. ops... im not trying to advertise!]

the one who hired me [but not necessarily my boss] asked me some weeks ago when we had a brief chat if i regret quitting my job. i said i regret not being able to earn regular salary, but i dont regret leaving cause i was certain that it was the right thing to do that time...

that was the past. the year that has passed, at least. some of us might have screwed up big time in more ways than one. but here's to another year... here's to new beginnings. here's to the start of the new decade. here's to the future days... sure im still anxious of what might happen, torn between the will and what will be... sure im still aware that new year doesnt change the fact that the economy is still waiting to get better... that the earth is still going through alarming climate changes... that corruption still exists in some countries... that war and rumors of war still linger in some places.

but there is hope. that life can still see change for the better one day at a time. everyday is still a winding road with many twists and turns... but all these will help us build faith and character if we allow these difficulties to teach and shape us. if we allow God to lead us the way... fresh start. they do happen... in which im determined to find it.

no new years resolutions. no impossible dreams. just the will and determination to be hopeful and cheerful... and to let God lead me every step of the way...

here's to the future days... cheers. whatever.